Tonight, I have a very big confession to make. This is something that I consider my greatest flaw and it's been weighing on my mind a lot lately. I am perpetually exhausted. That's no big news, I know, for other d-moms. The lack of a full night of sleep for year after year after year drags us down sometimes. But here's the problem and where my big flaw comes in....I wake up completely drained. I can't get myself going. I drink coffee and I turn on the tv (bad mommy!) so that the kids can be entertained by cartoons while they eat breakfast. And then...I lie down on the couch and doze until they become sick of it and start making me move. Yup, there's the feeling of shame creeping in. I'm a lazy mommy in the mornings. I can't get myself moving. I hate that I can't just bounce out of bed, ready to face the day, with the energy to tackle it all with my children in tow. I just can't figure out how to do that! Even on the nights when I get a good amount of sleep, it still takes me an hour or two to get going. I don't like rushing in the morning. I'm lazy. I need to find a way to force myself to tackle this issue and make some necessary changes. I feel like I'm not making the most of my time with my children and I'm not being "present" enough in their days, their playtimes. I want to be a "fun mommy". I want them to have great memories of what it was like to spend their days with me. And most of all, I want to fill our days with activities and fun and meaning. I must do this! They're worth the effort. I just need to push my exhaustion and tiredness aside and get myself going. Maybe I just need to do the same thing with this problem as I did with the lack of exercise and make myself move bright and early for 30 days straight. It's an idea...who knows, maybe it would work! Really, these adorable little beasts are worth that amount of effort and more!
*Pictures were already on the computer. Gotta find that camera!